Kill Me-this is toooooooooo gushy. kiss kiss

Trying to spice something up here-to get my mind of things…so eh…here are poems. I wrote these poems a long time ago-just never got around posting them up. So enjoy! Ps: On my dash board-it seems that people are searching for me as the ‘asian who’s going to Harvard’-not true. So sorry.

anyways…the poems

Forgotten Stars

For countless nights,

I think about your smile, and laughter.

They remind me of the stars in the heavens,

things that I once thought would never leave my side.

Always there for me to wish upon.

And yet, for countless nights

I think about the sarrow and the wounds that would not heal even after the long years,

even with the warmest glow from the sun.

I think about all those times in which I questioned myself,

and all the times to which the space next to me is cold,

and forgotten.

As I gaze at the stars, I feel a sense of change;

a shift in the world I live in.

A change that perhaps will never be the same, and

a change that will leave me heartbroken, and

wishing for the same stars.

 

YOU; Self Reflection

You cannot hide from me what you hide to others.

I see the thoughts going through your minds eye;

every step you plan to take,

and every secret you tuck away thinking no one will know.

Through your deceit, and assumptions I see

the reasons why, perhaps clearer than you

for I will always be a couple of steps ahead of you.

I can read you like a book,

and make more accurate assumptions than you.

You may brush this off like it’s nothing,

but I warn you,

someday will be the day you will be revealed,

if not by your own foolish and ignorant mistakes.

Alyson My Love

There were many times in this life in which the sun did not glow,

and stars did not shine. Yet, you were the only beam of light

that kept me away from darkness.

A dark that cannot be changed, nor saved.

You were always there for me,

through sickness and pain; one cannot ask for a more true friend than you.

You are also my muse, my friend in life

one of whom that makes me strive for the best in this time.

It is because of you that I am stonger, knowing I’ll always have you by my side.

Cheers to ten years of friendship.

 heheh.. I know this is crap…but whatever-think whatever you want to think. and yes, I have issues if that’s what you’re pondering

Random + ness

I think today was the most boring school day ever-I went to school, went to class, went to the Science Cafe meeting, and then just went to Team Read/CLC. During the whole day, I just wanted to go to sleep or go home and curl up in the fetal position. lol. Heh. And now, I just don’t feel like going home at all-I want to avoid the really sharp tension at home. Sigh. Home. It used to be the one place where I could feel like I was safe…and now, it’s no longer my______ (damn…whats the word I want to use here? Oh well, you understand) I know that by not going home (my mom already called me to go home for dinner-I just pretended the signal was bad) it will prolong the oncoming conflict, but I feel like theres no choice. I’ll just wait until the storm is over. Yes, that’s it. Currently, I am looking over my shoulder-there are many crooks out there, including the famed Beacon Hill rapist. Hehehe…I’m so glad I bring pepper spray with me…but fat chance that’s gonna help me…I need to learn how to run faster. Or better yet, I might want to learn how to play dead. Heh. I really want to talk to C right now…his advice always makes me feel better.

Sunset…

The best thing about this time of year is the amount of day light. As I was walking to the library after CLC and Team Read, I passed this hill that allowed me to see the sun going down. And across the sky were different colors; it was a really peaceful sight-with the trees, the setting sun, the meadows, the lake, and the mountains. It really reminds me of my one dream in life…that’s not related to education or academics; I’ve always wanted to travel. Especially from the stress of this year, I just want to leave Seattle and the US as a whole. Sadly, I know I would never leave in reality. Perhaps it’s just because I went to Exeter last summer, and experienced something unique and different. Or maybe because I’m just really excited about Harvard this summer. Whatever it is, I really want to leave Seattle, and just leave everything behind for a year…or two. :] It’s not that I don’t love Seattle, but I feel it’s crowding me in some ways; the air is too dense for me to breathe in. And somehow, I think Sweden or Paris is better…maybe even the mountains in Germany? Hmm…I just want to leave, and see the rest of the world. But yea, that sunset also triggered some fond memories as well…some I thought I’ve forgotten; it’s funny how so many things happen in one life and you only get to remember some part of it. My memories of Exeter are fond; it’s the ideal place for me in many ways.